Friday, October 26, 2012

Don't remember

I try to remember
but it's hard
It's like I don't remember
all the torture and pain

A bad dream is over
This neverending nightmare had an ending
Now I'm dealing
with life
schoolwork
friends
and job
Never felt this happy
It's a gift
I'm gonna hold
forever in my heart
In every beat.
I see future
I see life.

Hääled

Nad räägivad minust
Öö ja päev
Nad võtavad kinni mõtetest

Laigud mu käel
Ebareaalsus võtab võimust
Mineviku vead, pole tuleviku ootust


Lagi mu toal on must
Ainsaks esemeks ruumis on tühi kast
Seinad räägivad hullust skisost
Nad ei lõpeta, vaid räägivad sellest lausest
Mul on kahju
Ma olen kurb
Miks hääled ei jahtu
Miks ei võiks nad minna purki
Nad kuulavad, ma söön kurki
Nad vastavad, tõmbame su orki.
Ja nii päevast päeva
Pole pausi, pole vaikset aega.


Tuhat kurja hinge elab minu sees
Ma olen vannis, uppuda võiks vees.

Tema

Ta hiilib,
ja hiilib,
ja hiilib.
Karmauhh.
Ründab.
Noa selga torkab.
Veri alla voolab.
Kas kujutlus.
Reaalsus
kadunud kaugele minevikku,
jättis siia psühhooside keskele.
Olen nõutu
ja abitu,
kuid veel abitumad on kõrvalseisjad.
Elus on paratamatusid
Ma tõukan
Lumme sisse kukun
Sest tõugatav
oli paljas õhk.
Mind tunnetav rõhk.
Sihtmärgitu liikumine
mind raudteele viib.
Istudes rongi ootamine
kujutlused mõttese toob.
Rong tuleb.
Mina selja keeran ja eemale astun.
Sest sisimas lootus mind hoiab.

It is you and me and the breeze

It is you and me and the breeze
Can you feel it, the freedome
It's everywhere, it is our home
we are individuals not clones

I like to watch the sky
wish i was a bird, i could fly
but as time passes as it goes by
still, clouds are too high

Stars are lightening our love

You make me feel perfect
I have so many word of our connection
words you cant reject
words that affect
 each other
going further and further

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Inner devil

You have personality
I asked your name
But the voice is nameless
He have no memories
So how to call you
My devil
inner monster
What colour is your hair
and eyes
I'd like to see you
in real life
but you are trapped
inside my head
And I am the only one
listening you
You are no soulmate
You are just an innner pain
I can't get rid off
So I'll make fun of you
Laugh at you
and all you can do
is get mad for a second

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Kurb tõde

Kõik jääb lõpetamata,
pole jõudu ega tahet ka
Minu taga hiilib vari,
see sõnumit saadab,
sõnadest saab lori,
Vaikusest võin ainult unistada,
Peas torm ja merekohin,
seal paat seilatab.
Ma pole patune hing,
kuid saatus otsustas,
minust sai mõistuse vang.
Mu elu nii lihtsalt loovutas.
Kas minult küsida oleks võinud?
Mõni teine ehk põrgut rohkem väärinud?
Ei siin loe vanus ega süütus
Ei sellest saa ma üle ega ümber.
Ainus, mis mind elus hoiab on lootus,
olles üks inimvare.
Minust saanud diagnoos,
kui pilt seinas.
Võtnud sisse tardunud poos,
lähedased oleks justkui leinas.

The Truth

You have nothing seen yet
You do not know feelings until
this one day
You'll get to know
all the pain of the world
All converted into feelings
And they say:
"Schizophrenics".

A war ..

A war inside my head is taking place
I wish for peace, but it's like neverending chase
There's nothing I can do, makes me feeling blue
Don't know what is the reason to live like this
I'd throw myself, everything that resembles me to the abyss
Give me reasons to stay, give me reasons to pray
My eyes, they are colorless of this way of life
It's silence I miss, but all I get is this noise of no reality.

I feel too much

I feel too much
This is poisoned, my lunch
I know You are looking
and thinking
about me
hearing
my every thought
If you wanna fight
we will fight
You can have a fork
and I'll take a knife
What? You are from out of space
Here to destroy me
sending messages to my head
No, it's not fear
it's rage
I'll kill you
and everyone you know

Just for a moment

I see cats flying above my house
My imaginary world is a chaos
There is a lot of pink
all the clouds they can think
and tell stories, make love movies
And flowers cry, the grass is shy
this all goes by
when you drop in, this world within
disappears, reality appears
and we kiss..

Voices in my head

Voices in my head
makes me feel like I'm dead
Voices in my head
I choose death instead
Voices in my head
please go away, spread
Voices in my head
Can't see future ahead
Voices in my head
Illussions next to me in bed
Voices in my head
It's global, widespread
Voices in my head
can't even hold knife to cut bread
Voices in my head
Voices in my head
Voices in my head